my lovely one..

today my gran passed away. sigh..
the overwhelming emotion that took me off my feet was just about more than i could bear.
my heart ached for most of the morning, as it does now, not understanding exactly all i felt.

wishing i had called her last week when i was planning on it..
thinking that it was so great she just got out of the hospital on sunday, to go home to then go "home"..

my poppa, her husband, passed away december 2004..a long time to be missing your spouse, which i know gran had been for so very long.. how she wished she were with her jesus, the one who saved her from all despair.. and how she missed her husband, the one she spent almost 60 years with..

then suddenly i realized so very much.. the overwhelming joy she is experiencing right now being with grampa and her savior jesus is more joy than i will ever know in this lifetime. tears poured from my eyes.. oh i can't even imagine the joy she is feeling right now..something i may never feel in this world but can only hope for in eternity.

my cousin in LA, whom i'm very close with, wrote a song this afternoon to gran..i am posting it because it, too, is my heart..

my friend by david larring

i love you gramma jenny.
i love you more than you know.
and thank you.
for loving me.
for believing in me.
for praying for me.
for being such a godly woman to me.
and a woman i will remember always and cherish forever.

i miss you.


(pictures taken march 2007)